
Some of you may 'curse' me for doing this...but I just got done reading the above book (and NO there aren't any repulsive scenes in this one). It was a marvelous book AND I want to share a little bit of it with you. Not many books can actually cause me to tear up, but this one did and this is one of the many passages that did it...
Thousands of eyes bore down on her. In the crowded bleachers, necks were craned for the benefit of a better view. Tongues clucked. A murmuring sound rippled through the stadium when Mariam was helped down from the truck. Mariam imagined heads shaking when the loudspeaker announced her crime. But she did not look up to see whether they were shaking with disapproval or charity, with reproach or pity. Mariam blinded herself to them all.
Earlier that morning, she had been afraid that she would make a fool of herself, that she would turn into a pleading, weeping spectacle. She had feared that she might scream or vomit or even wet herself, that, in her last moments, she would be betrayed by animal instinct or bodily disgrace. But when she was made to descend from the truck, Mariam’s legs did not buckle. Her arms did not flail. She did not have to be dragged. And when she did feel herself faltering, she thought of Zalmai, from whom she had taken the love of his life, whose days now would be shaped by the sorrow of his father’s disappearance. And then Mariam’s stride steadied and she could walk without protest.
An armed man approached her and told her to walk toward the southern goalpost. Mariam could sense the crowd tightening up with anticipation. She did not look up. She kept her eyes to the ground, on her shadow, on her executioner’s shadow trailing hers.
Though there had been moments of beauty in it, Mariam knew that life for the most part had been unkind to her. But as she walked the final twenty paces, she could not help but wish for more of it. She wished she could see Laila again, wished to hear the clangor of her laugh, to sit with her once more for a pot of chai and leftover halwa under a starlit sky. She mourned that she would never see Aziza grow up, would not see the beautiful young woman that she would one day become, would not get to paint her hands with henna and toss noqul candy at her wedding. She would never play with Aziza’s children. She would have liked that very much, to be old and play with Aziza’s children.
Near the goalpost, the man behind her asked her to stop. Mariam did. Through the crisscrossing grid of the burqa, she saw his shadow arms lift his shadow Kalashnikov.
Mariam wished for so much in those final moments. Yet as she closed her eyes, it was not regret any longer but a sensation of abundant peace that washed over her. She thought of her entry into this world, the harami child of a lowly villager, an unintended thing, a pitiable, regrettable accident. A weed. And yet she was leaving the world as a woman who had loved and been loved back. She was leaving it as a friend, a companion, a guardian. A mother. A person of consequence at last. No. It was not so bad, Mariam thought, that she should die this way. Not so bad. This was a legitimate end to a life of illegitimate beginnings.
Mariam’s final thoughts were a few words from the Koran, which she muttered under her breath.
He has created the heavens and the earth with the truth; He makes the night cover the day and makes the day overtake the night, and He has made the sun and the moon subservient; each one runs on to an assigned term; now surely He is the Mighty, the Great Forgiver.
“Kneel,” the Talib said.
O my Lord! Forgive and have mercy, for you are the best of the merciful ones.
“Kneel here, hamshira. And look down.”
One last time, Mariam did as she was told.
After reading of her life in this book, knowing all that she had gone through to be at the point she was at...the thing that stuck with me most is where she thought to herself that she had no regrets and felt only a sensation of abundant peace. Beautiful, absolutely beautiful. I guess it kind of hit me hard because when I die, IF I have time to reflect upon my life, I can only hope that I will think and feel what she did.
8 comments:
This was a perfect Blog for me! I was just thinking to myself that I needed to find a good book!
Ooohh, that sounds like a very touching/heartwrenching book. It is on my to-read list. Maybe I'll have to bump it up closer to the top.
I have gone back and forth about reading it cause I have heard both sides of hate or love this book. BUt I think I will give it a try thanks!!
I have always wanted to read that book, and I think I will now, as soon as I finish the 20 I buy and say I am going to finish soon. lol ;0)
I've never heard of that, I'll have to see if the library has it. I have a stack of 12 (I'm not kidding), books on my night stand that I want to read. someday. Have a great day
So like everyone else I'm going to read that book. I keep wanting to but find myself reading others. I loved kite runner, isn't that the same author? Love ya tons and miss ya too.
I didn't know he had written another one! The Kite Runner was graphic, but SUCH a good book, it's true. Thanks for sharing. I'm always up for a good read, but man did you really spoil the ending for us all, or does she miraculously escape? Way to leave me hanging- I'll go to the library tomorrow. I love the part about her life was good because she was loved and loved others. Beautiful.
Shellie~Luckily, this isn't the end of the book...much more comes after. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did (and sorry if this spoiled it a little).
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